Sunday, July 3, 2011

Reflection on Russia

Honestly, I cannot fully express everything that my recent trip has been in words.
During the debrief time at the end of my trip, I read this poem to express a lot of how the trip made me feel. 
I still think it applies rather well, to give a general view of the impact.


A missing person
   Afterthought 
      Always chasing what is not
Steady growth
   I cannot change
      Yet gaining more within my range
I do not know
   I cannot hear
      Approaching only what I fear
New desires
   Misbegotten
      Shall become old, and then forgotten
I cannot see
   Just what is true
      But I shall find myself in You
My one goal
   That I have truly
      Is to pursue You, and pay You duly
But I am at
   A loss to pay
      Forever ruined in my way
So give to me
   One more chance
      Within this, my lifelong dance
While I can never
   Pay it back
      You have provided what I lack
Now I will live 
   Just to serve
      Making straight what once did curve
A prodigal
   One that was lost
      I am forgiven by the Lord of hosts
Where found
   Empty desire
      Consume me now with all Your fire
Let my life
   My heart, my all
      Before You only forever fall
I have grown
   From no hope
      Broadened horizons, widened scope
Take me out
   Of the darkness
      So that Your Love I can harness
While I totter
   On an edge
      Still You will receive this pledge
So I stand
   Forever thankful
      For a Love beyond the hateful
Hateful lives
   That stem from fears
      Others that collapse in tears
Reaching far
   Beyond myself
      To understand those on this shelf
I would become
   What I dream
      In order to provide a seem
To fix a hole
   In Someone's heart
      Turn them from ruin to work of art
But only through
   The strength of One
      Who understood before I'd begun
So not on my
   Two feet I stand
       But on my rock, and in His hand

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